Growing up

When did becoming an adult start to suck? Excuse my language, mom. But it’s true. I remember when I was younger and all I wanted to do was grow up and be an adult, have a car, my own place, be able to make my own rules and live on my terms. I would roll my eyes when my parents laughed and said “You’ll see one day,” or give me the ever so popular “Money doesn’t grow on trees” speech. I would run to my room and belly flop onto my bed and break into tears and scream that I couldn’t wait for the day that I would be on my own; all because they wouldn’t give me money to meet my friends or a ride to the mall. Man, I was such a brat, a cute one, but a brat nonetheless. What I wouldn’t give to turn back the hands of time.

In 1999, Destiny’s Child came out with a hit song, “Bills, Bills, Bills”. I was 16 at the time and I didn’t have any bills nor the responsibilities. I had a job, but worked very little so my paycheck reflected that. At that time though, I didn’t have anything to pay for besides gas and my extra activities so I was okay. I was able to do what I wanted to do when I wasn’t working and I didn’t have the responsibilities to worry about. Yet, all I wanted was to grow up and be on my own and feel like I was an adult. Now I am one and it’s not all it was cracked up to be.

Yes, being an adult is empowering because you do get to make your own choices, you get to vote, you get to decide how you want to spend your free time, and your career choice is up to you. Being a grown up at our age for many people may even mean you have a family to take care of. When we were younger and in school, we were taught how to calculate formulas like: Solve for x; y2 + (75-8x-the circumference of the sun÷34^7) + the area of the continent of North America – 274. Which, let me tell you, I use daily. I couldn’t tell you the last time I needed to know any of the symbols on the periodic table of elements unless it was a question on Trivia Crack. The things I learned in school did prepare me for some things, but they didn’t prepare me for life. They didn’t prepare me for becoming an adult. They didn’t get me ready to be on my own in the real world where I would have to make my own choices and make hard decisions; the decisions that would eventually teach me who I was and want to be and who I didn’t want to be. Should I hang out with this crowd? Should I go to that party? Try this alcohol? Smoke that joint? Would that make me fit in or make me look like a follower? Life. Life taught me all that hard stuff that an algebraic equation or dissecting a reptile couldn’t teach me. School didn’t teach us how to get over heartaches and how to mend friendships or how to be a good parent. We learn that over time and through our different personal experiences. Growing up is a responsibility much like having bills to pay and having a family to care for. Being an adult sucks and it’s scary and we can’t stop it from happening but if we can look back on all those moments that helped mold us into who we are or who we are still becoming and be thankful and humble, that is when you know you are growing, and that is just beautiful.