As a teenager, I couldn't help but notice all my female friends were getting visits from their friend once a month. I still think men experience the monthly mood swing, but that's another topic. Anyway, I kept waiting for mine. Sure now I hear everyone curse it. But as a growing teen, that was your sign as "woman hood". So by the time I turned 17 and I still didn't get my visit, my mom became worried.
Close you eyes mom. I was sexually active at the time with my longtime boyfriend. I didn't know any better. I was more worried that MAYBE I was supposed to start but I was pregnant instead. I couldn't tell you how much money I wasted buying tests just to make sure. Like I said, I didn't know any better. But I should've known then that moms are always right and she knew something was wrong.
We went to go see the local gynecologist. I just remember the pain that I had to sit thru when he wanted to give me an ultrasound and then another. Drinking so much fluid and then having to hold it while he pressed down over and over, omg I thought I was going to explode! Then I remember one time I drank TOO much so he had me go to the bathroom so I could let a very tiny amount out. Yea okay. Imagine the Hoover Dam having a lil crack in it and it has to close before all the water just bursts thru. That was my bladder. Anyway, after a number a tests, the local gynecologist wanted a second opinion so he sent us to see a specialist at the Cleveland Clinic. The specialist was a pediatric gynecologist so I was a lil confused because I considered myself an adult. I was technically still a minor so I had to go see the children's doctor. So here come more ultrasounds and more tests.
But, the outcome was very different.
Me, my mom, and my dad all sat down in the doctor's office, not a patient room, her actual office. She started to tell us that after numerous testing to try to find my uterus, they were unsuccessful because it wasn't developed. I was born without a uterus and an under developed vaginal canal. And I could never carry a child.
Wait. What?
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ReplyDeleteI just wanted to add something but apparently it didn't have a edit option. So I will start again. I know that every woman hates having there period, but even though I would love not having it I couldn't imaging it. I can't even begin to imagine what feelings and emotions you were feeling being told that you dont have a uterus and would never be able to carry children.
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling! I had to go through that ultrasound last year! And it was purely awful and embarrassing.
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